:hermit:

Something about today. I’ve been feeling really quiet, and really withdrawn. It felt like I was looking at everything and everyone from an additional five feet away. A bunch of us went to Portillo’s for lunch, and while I was there… I didn’t really participate in much of the conversations. Tony was visiting, and I feel badly for not really engaging him more. I was sucked into my own little world today.

It’s odd. I’m not particularly sad or upset or depressed. Just quiet. And all I want is to be away from people. This, unfortunately, led me to turn down several offers to be social.

I was at work a bit late, and Justin and Emma were heading out to grab some pizza. They asked me to join them, but I declined. We all split a cab near our apartments, and after they dropped me off… the two of them went to eat. Not an hour later, I got a call from Liz and Steph, saying that they were at the Artful Dodger (a bar that’s literally less than a block away), asking me out. I also turned them down.

Good lord. Pretty girls are asking me out for drinks, and I say “No, sorry. I feel like staying in tonight.” I need to get my head checked.

For good or ill, it’s there. And for good or ill, I’m holed up in my apartment. I’m not sure if I necessarily want to be isolated right now, but I do know that I have to spend time alone before I can be around any more people. Recharge isn’t the right word, but it’s the first word that comes to mind.

Times like now, I really wish this wasn’t a quirk of mine.

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