Problems Concentrating

All day today, I’ve been unfocused. This morning I ran errands, and took an ungodly time deciding on things because I didn’t make a list and couldn’t remember what I wanted. Made lunch, started some laundry, and the next thing I know it’s damn near 8 PM.

The one plus from this morning: I figured out where the Beef Stock was located in the grocery store. Soup aisle. This whole time, I was looking around in spices and baking section. I’ve never used it before, but a few of the recipes I’ve found online call for it – so I decided to get some.

Early this afternoon, I tried my hand at making some vegetable soup. Again, since I had problems concentrating… I only glanced briefly at a few recipes online, and decided to just start throwing things together. I set the crock pot on high, and let it go for a few hours. When I went back to check, the soup was… well, it sorta tasted like vegetables had been soaking in some hot water for a few hours.

Threw most of it out. Giving it another attempt right now. I changed some of the amounts around (I was slicing up the vegetables too big – preparing them as if for a side dish, not for a soup). But to be honest, I’m not sure what I’m doing.

When the superbowl started earlier, I left the TV on in the background. Occasionally, I’ll walk out of the office and back into the living room, flipping through the channels. There’s a cool documentary on PBS about seeing-eye dogs, and I switched between the game and PBS. I have no great interest in football, but it still seems kinda interesting to watch.

In front of the TV, I know I should be sitting at the computer, trying to get Ben’s project completed. I don’t want to sit down on the couch, as that would be a full admission that I’m not working, that I’m distracted and not concentrating on the task at hand. So what do I do? I end up standing in front of the television, flipping through stations manually.

By standing right in front of the TV, I’m not focusing on work, and I’m not totally pissing away my evening. I’m perfectly poised in a limbo of indecisiveness.