An Anxious Day Outside
Today, Liz stopped work a bit early and went out to a garden center to get some new plants. Garden centers are now considered “essential,” and visiting one seems to be in line with visiting the grocery store.
Today, I ended up working later than planned. And after 5:30 PM, went outside to try to do yard work. While Liz was pretty productive, I was mired in a lot of grumbling and negativity.
I’m not sure when it happened, but I was overcome again with a feeling of dread and despair. I haven’t felt like this since the first 2-3 weeks of the Coronavirus, and much if my emotions kicked up again.
I think a lot of it stems from trying to figure out how/when/if we should visit family members. And the same waves of dread that seemed to incapacitate me, back in March/April, came back again.
I feel like I’ve been largely fine and free of any Coronavirus-specific worries, in the last month. But today, whatever it was that came over me felt exactly like how I felt, during the first few months when we all began staying and isolating at home.