Too Soon

When I asked Liz today if the mail came yet, she said to me “Yes, but you’re not going to be happy.”

I was a little puzzled by her answer. But then I looked, and saw what was waiting for me.

A letter from the AARP.

I… was not ready for that. And to be honest, I’m still not ready. I don’t even know how to process the fact that this showed up at my doorstep. It feels like a wrong delivery. That this message was meant for someone else. For someone not me.

It’s one thing to know my birthday is coming up. And that it’s a big number.

It’s something else entirely, to have this large shadow fall over my house. To have time manifest itself in such a direct and aggressive manner. To have the notion forced into my brain that the days ahead may potentially be equal, or potentially less, than the days behind.

I’m not ready.

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