Bah

Work was work today. Nothing fun, nothing exciting. I’m fielding a lot of Justin’s calls, from here until March, as he focuses on a serious redesign of how our sites are structured (from the ground-up). A few network problems towards the end of the day. My phone was ringing a lot more than normal.

I knew this week would be busy, but so far all the business has sprung up from unexpected sources. A lot of projects that I know are looming are still just that – looming.

I got home slightly late, balanced my checkbook, paid some bills, blah blah fucking blah. I made a salad for dinner, since I ordered out and ate a ton of crap food this weekend. I’ve had a strong desire for a drink this evening, but have kept that at bay.

Today feels like something pre-emptively sucked all the fun out of things, and left me with the suckage.

There was some bad events at work (someone was let go, and it happened completely out of the blue), which I think clouded most of the day for me. I have no idea as to the why, so I don’t know if what happened was justified or not. I like the company I work for a lot, and I have a great deal of faith that something like this doesn’t just happen without some very good reasons.

I have no details, I have no explanations; I don’t know if I necessarily care to, although I think it might help. What I do have though (and what seems to be sticking with me) is this really heavy sense of how unfortunate the end result is. Seems silly, but that’s still there. Even now, some five hours after the end of the work day, I still can’t shake that feeling.

Ugh. I’m heading to bed. If I stay up any longer, I’m either going to start eating again, or start drinking.

Glass of water. Book. Bed.