Recluse

It was a gorgeous day outside today. But for some reason, I stayed in. Pulled the hermit thing and puttered around. The crappy thing is that I didn’t even really get much of anything done. Did a bit of laundry. Watched American Splendor, but didn’t get all the way through it yet. In fact, I’ve been watching it in about 35 minute segments.

I even woke up early this morning, and had plans for taking a walk, just wandering around some and taking pictures. But every time I got to the door, I looked outside and decided I didn’t care to be around people.

Lately, I’ve been feeling fairly social, I guess. Seems like I go out a fair amount, or did this past week. But the past few days, I don’t have any desire to be around people. This negativity that’s been with me feels like a sense of loneliness. And yet, with that sensation, I don’t care to be out and about among people. Having those two thoughts in my head at the same time makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me.